2 weeks..

in the 2 weeks since i last blogged, so many things have changed:

1. work
metro/grouchy manager left. i must say its a pity he left, cause i think he is really good at what he does, and i can learn a lot from him. but then, work just seems so much less stressful, even though workload increased. no more fears of messing up, even though i still set high standards of not messing up. and this feeling wasnt just shared by me only but by my other colleague in my team too. new jobscope, more opportunities to expose myself to more things. not going to complain abt tt. many new colleagues also left, in come a few new ones. some good, one is just.. makes me feel like im back in army all over again. all the efforts to look good in front of the boss.

2. church
4 years since i became a christian. in school education terms, that will be primary 4. but i accepted a nomination to be a deacon, and has since been voted in. 4 years. am i qualified? do i know what im doing? chris had quite a surprise when i told him that, that im like a certain 27yr old or a 24 yr old trying to run for politics. honestly, i always thought that 4 yrs is way too soon. so why did i do it? the church needed people, and on one else wants to answer the call. so many of them, just very satisfied with being served on sundays, so many of them, just care abt their own lives than the church. i look at the young adults, the supposebly the immediate future of the church. not one. all with excuses. work, cannot work with the pastor, etc. so did i take it up because no one else wants to? it did speed up when i took it up, but i really think that if the church needs me, i can give my whatever i have for it, to make a difference. i know i am not a couch critic unlike many, who criticize and not wanting to do anything to change things. who blames the poor attitude of the members, but they themselves display the same attitudes. someone has to sacrifice first to make changes... who is willing to? not many, not many enough.

3. personal life
i dunno where to start....

Slow to anger

So everyone, almost everyone at least, knows one of my pet peeve is late coming. it is one of those things, that is potentially the easier thing to get me unhappy.

so i had a cell meeting on friday, at 7pm. not before long, i get smses from everyone telling me that they will be late. well, it wouldnt have been so bad if i was still in office, but i was already on my way. but then thing is, i didnt get angry, though it was really a struggle to keep the anger from appearing. because 1) all of them message me early enough to tell me they are late, its just bad luck that i decided to leave my office before that. 2) all of them gave good reasons why they are going to be late.

walking around almost aimlessly in plaza sing, i think i was getting a bit tired of having to keep convincing myself that i shldnt get angry. i spotted jiahui and alicia at spotlight, attempting to hide from me, holding some art and craft material. my oh so brilliant mind, added 1 and 1 together, and realized they werent really late, they just needed time to do some surprise thing for me. right there, the struggle against anger totally disappeared. i mean, how can anyone be angry with people being so sweet towards you? after chasing them off to do their suprise, i just cant help but gave a big smile. partially because of the surprise, but more because im smiling at God, at how He teaches me things and putting me through things, for me to learn.

so the whole point was God teaching me about anger managerment? that's not exactly all. i have been looking for plastic easter eggs for weeks with no luck. but if it wasnt for the lateness, i would never had the time to step into spotlight, which was where i found the eggs i needed!

unsettling

so its officially not an april fool's joke. manager's last day is on friday, and though at many times, it wasnt easy working to him, having to swollow my pride, and not defending myself when i wasnt wrong but strangely, i am quite sad with his leaving. mainly cause he is really good at what he does, and i think i can learn a lot from him, and when he is in a good mood, he is actually quite a nice person.
at least i found out last friday, unlike my colleague who found out only this morning at his shock. suddenly, today became the last day he is working with my manager (cause he will be going on reservist from tmr)

we arent hiring another manager, so we will be reporting to the senior mktg executive instead. while no doubt she is good at excuting stuff, i cant help but think that she is still lacking in the more overall picture. not that i am condemning her, cause im pretty sure in a few yrs, she will be there. but while she's making her way there, i dunno, cant help but feel a little unsettle with what i will have to go thru at work.