cliffhangers

2 leonardo di caprio movies in the last 2 weeks, 2 cliffhanger type ending. first it was inception, then followed by shutter island. endings that do not tell you what is really going on, but keep you on your toes, keep you guessing.

with no influence from that two movies, i did a cliffhanger here too, much to adeline's displeasure. i remember it quite well, since it was accompanied by a smack on the head.

so i was talking about leadership camps. on hindsight, i realized i am someone who enjoys camp a lot, either being a participant, or being one of the organizers. strangely so. for those who don't know yet, im a very fussy sleeper. meaning, the conditions i need before i can fall asleep is so so so strict. if im not in my bed, you can rest assure that i wouldnt be catching a lot of sleep. if im not in a bed at all, chances are, i'll be entertain by the snores of the night, waiting and looking out for the first light.

anyway, the camp i was referring to would be when i was a facilitator in the freshman leadership and teambuilding camp in 2005. being a post year 1 student, with very few friends in smu, i somehow convinced myself to sign up to be a faci alone. the day came when the facis-hopeful had a camp of their own. to test out the activities, to see if every hopeful has the potential to be a effective faci. many times on the night before, i wanted to just pull out. dread going for such things alone, since im someone who really hates the beginning of socializing.. all the small talk.. all the awkwardness.. by some act of God, i turned up at bukit gombak bright and on time. things will get better? nah.. not yet. i was put in a group which has already cliques of their own. and to make matter worse, they werent the most welcoming people. somehow i survived.

the plan was that, the group you were in during the trial camp would be the group you are working with on the actual camp. somehow, i was switched to another group. there i met alina, who created the name that is so in tune with my branding, the creator of "sebbie". one cold morning in the auditorium. a seminar was going on, teaching us how to facilitate. a bored alina, who only sat beside me because she came really late, stole my notes, and wrote "sebbie" in big colourful fonts on the top. that's the start of it all.. and somehow, the branding caught on, and to some level, i think that nickname somehow gave other people an impression that i was much more approachable than a sebastian. how that brand spread, with a few different spellings over the year (sebby, sebbie, sabby). with the help of amy, most of everyone calls me by that now, smu friends, smu ultimate friends, church friends, chuckies friends.

though no empirical research was done on sebbie and his approachability, i do believe that it has made a difference in my life. with the name, i think i has also become a less serious person.

haha. not the kind of part 2 huh.. but its still enlightening right? now you know why you call me sebby.. heh..