im at an age where many all over the world are married and having families of their own. no, this is not a post about my feelings over marriage but i'm just saying that this is a age where most people thinks one should be old enough, capable enough to handle their own lives, be it with their married other half or working in a strange foreign country. in this light, i see myself as capable enough to handle the stress in life, the ups, the downs, and the emotions that flow from the circumstances of life. that said, im still quite surprised how a quarrel between my parents still depresses me, much more than many things bad things in life. each time they do, they do not scream at each other, but they do not close their door and even if i try to block them out, i still hear them pretty clearly. and it's has been the same problem for the past... many years. im at a age when i am not afraid to share my point of view, be it at a church board meeting or at work, but when it comes to parents arguement, i just dont feel "qualified" for the lack of a better word, to voice out. my parents are both stubborn on their own point of view, and I must say both have a point, though both have times when they are missing the point.
the sad fact is that both of them are sacrificing so much for the family. at an age where a lot others have happily retired, with their kids looking after them, mine do not enjoy the luxury of such. most of their awake time is still spent slogging away. if.. just if.. they can agree on how to sacrifice together so that it doesnt make the other one unhappy.
saying that, i can only wonder the kind of emotions that go through a younger much younger child having to deal with parents' problems.
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